David went on a fishing trip with his father and his father’s friend from work. The location was his friend’s home in Middleville Michigan.
While dad and friend were prepping the fishing boat trailer, David explored the property. David had to use the bathroom badly, so he entered through the closest door at ground level. As he entered, he had to make a choice. Up the stairs and to the right, or down the stairs to the left. It was a mid stairway point of entry to the basement staircase – a mudroom entry.
David was curious about this basement and descended the stairs. It’s hard to explain what david experienced without it seeming sensationalized. But that’s exactly what it was for David. Sensory overload. David had never experienced a sensation other than blissful energy. The energy on this day seemed to jump on David, crying out for help. Screaming, crying, clawing, begging for help. The most intense chills ran through his body, making him bolt up the staircase so fast that he wound up in the kitchen, surprising the wife of his father’s friend. She would later convey through her husband, to David’s dad, how severely disturbed little David was.
John was not an overly concerned dad. “Just a kid’s imagination getting the best of him”. Typical patriarchal fathering, is what David remembers to this day, from this incident.
For years, David thought this to be a ghost or tormented individual soul, trapped in that basement. Reaching out to David’s open heart/energy, much like the movie Stir of Echoes. It scared David so much, that for years, anytime David entered his own basement, he’d run crazy back up the stairs to escape that memory and creepy sensation of clawing energy.
For years, David’s “adult [Christian-conditioned] imagination” was convinced that he overhead his distraught father talking about his friend’s demise. “He murdered a little girl and kept the body in his basement, that son of a bitch!” – father, is what David imagined. Nope. David’s recent research found no such evidence. Something far more profound was affirmed though. The distraught energy was David subconsciously burying the trend of loud arguments between his parents. His parents had a terrible argument before heading out to fish on this day. David forgot that key point, until Oct 2020.
David wished that they didn’t have to argue this way. David always felt more concern for his dear mother. David’s dad adored his mother and never harmed her physically. David did worry though, was she being injured mentally or spiritually? To cope with the pain now becoming guilt, David conveniently hid the painful reality. He buried it under a Stir of Echoes imagined event, to hide the sensationalized energy and true message of this day.
Something far more profound had occurred. David had his 1st asynchronous (premonition) affirmation of a plea for help from THE [macro] feminine energy. He’d much later realize this wasn’t about his mother alone, but about all feminine storylines spanning 100s, perhaps 1,000s of years. The feminine energy had been pushed down, held down, deep within the unshared reality.
It wasn’t until the time of writing this part of his storyline, that upon exiting deep meditation and reflection of his entire storyline completely visible to him for the 1st time in 49 years, that David realized what that clawing energy really was on that Saturday in 1976.
It was the Matriarchal, wounded feminine energy, pleading with David’s young heart, to help Life rebalance the dominating, separating, wounded masculine energy, which has driven the macro storyline for thousands of years. Although necessary on some level to create contrast required to allow feminine and masculine energies to exist and know, the suffering was too extreme. David was realizing at a very young age, that his life had purpose, rooted in helping Life to rebalance the energy.
Wow! What a bold, bizarre, arrogant and even blasphemy statement? As one initiates and truly remembers how Life gets things started, all those words and judgements just fade away. There is no judgER and no-thing to BE judgED. ; D
Out of deep respect for his Parents, David wishes to clarify this was not a gender issue. Both of his parents had multi generational trauma, causing imbalance in their energy.
David’s grandfather abandoned his grandmother at her age 22, whilst nurturing 6 kids! David’s grandmother later abandoned his mother at age 9, leaving her to attempt to mother 4 her younger siblings while in foster care. Too much to ask of such a young heart. She lost one sister to foster care and didn’t see her again for 20 years. She lost two brothers to their life of crime and self-punishment. The guilt and anger had to be overwhelming, causing certain masculine energies to manifest and initiate arguments with David’s father.
David’s father’s mother, has a most beautiful and bizarre storyline, represented here. She was of pure Native (Tsalagi, aka Cherokee) descent, hidden under Spanish identity, which was “acceptable” during the era of Colonial expansion. Spain, France and England were the three powers vying for this “newly discovered land”. Alexandria was her spanish name in hiding. She knew better, and would impart a crucial cipher to her husband (David’s gpa Blas) from her deathbed in 1965. David’s father John, ADORED his mother. The feminine energy and respect for women was strong in John. Likewise, his father Blas, had total admiration for Alexandria and all feminine energy. All men in this side of the family have strong feminine energy and respect. Amidst the startling storyline of Native genocide and the culminating Patriarchal energy of the 1900s, the impact on John was detrimental. Many contradictions would inevitably surface, causing great friction first within John, and then in his relationship with Linda, David’s dear mother.
Negative emotion surfaces out of pain and failing attempts to deal with inner conflict and contradictions. David’s father knew enough about his Native origins to realize that the Matriarch had been trampled and cleansed out of existence (almost). A point of intense anger and frustration, he didn’t know how to deal with it.
This contradiction of energy imbalance, originating from two people with juxtapose roles and tendencies, was the perfect start for young david. He would capture this Understanding of Life’s design, in the XY Modes of Awareness model, which includes this visual below.
I broke out crying, listening to the message of “patience, waiting for Healthy masculine energy to heal the wounded masculine AND feminine energies, freeing the Healthy Feminine energy to Flow and Ascend, once again … 1,000 yrs and One-Step Closer … ”
Recent Comments