Part 1

What’s that mommy? 

I see …
but do not understand … 
am I allowed to…
as just a human?

It offers me no sound, no affirmation. 

It’s out of my reach, at least 
while I’m anchored TO a human 
On the breach 
Of being an abiding self

I birth this anxiety from that heavenly shelf

I cannot physically consume it, 
so I bother no more to wonder 
about its smell or taste.  
Our collective, consuming anxiety, 
growing with unintended haste.  

Is it above or under
this poor little me
Its effects so clear on the midnight sea
Puzzling this evolving, dissolving, scientific we

What ‘s common about these 5 senses
on the precipice of adult ignor-ance 
I seek to escape The Emptying feeling
This musical love, the dance

Why became What, now so obsessed with How and When
Is there any peace for men?
With all their fear born inTO [false] Separation 
Desperation … in avoiding the Final return 
to Harmony

I cannot see, my own head 
which thinks all of this, 
relying completely on Other 
to convince me 
who I am, and that I truly exist. 

Dear Identity, that was forged under futile resist 
It’s not like you, to fret and BEhave like this
You’re insincerely imitating That Other

It’s been a long time, where’d you go dear mother?

Since you were little
in language and thought
You Knew just to Flow in the Middle
But were eventually caught
by a whirlpool near beauty, so you set up camp
Refusing to let go, of your Identity’s stronghold
you seek to escape .. through Mind alone
Look High, not just low
The Question keeps calling you Home

Da, da, ta, tat
My son is calling my name?!
Coo, coo – Father and i are one,
IT’s Recursively all the same
Tat Tvam Asi 

The Good News lost,
pedastalized in dramatized shame 
As i age i grow more afraid  [a frayed]
Of all the roles portrayed, prophecy conveyed, all SELF made

What is ALL of This mommy?!
You’ve always Known … the What and the Why,  
by seeing through, all that seems to be 
chaos beneath, a care free sky
to only what remains …
Harmony

Part 2

What’s That Creator!!  
Prove! …that you really exist!!?

Self doubt, just trying to BE, 
replaced 
by other-seeking …pursuing, persecuting 
the ultimate SELF in Kenosis … Emptying
going beyond all words and symbols
Exposing the Mind’s expanding flaws 
overthinking, divergent Action, the only true Causation … 
desperate waste

OUR spreading cancer, Celf erased

This ‘i’ that thinks he Observes ‘we’
Reminded in one moment, that he Has forgotten
The deceitful morphing process, of deprivation, miseducation
Brought yet another ‘me’ into hiding, which Others forgot to seek

Rather than remain blissful in failing cellular ascension
This ‘he’ turned a cheek
back towards the miserable and bleak
Realizing that Re-Membering, is what SELF wants, from its Conceiving Misconception

Life Below, no longered Natured, by this me obsessed 
in realigning collective waning,
with wishes from Above
Nurturing and embracing,
the escaping … evolving, embodied

Welcoming self [SELF] back into,
this Recursive, Infinite Love

Forced dysfunctional events reversed 
This ‘i’, no longer feeling cursed
Diagnosis clear, as the heart of my former innocent infant Self
With joyful tear, I put the ‘book of That’, back upon that celestial shelf